update

So here I am doing a update....Im down about 15 pounds havent done my measuring though.  I'm good with the 15 pound weight loss, I'm down a size and it feels great, wish it was a bit more though, guess it didnt help that the last few days I cant help but eat junk Im back on track now, but I just couldnt stop, the only saving grace was the work outs I do.  As for the savings, that went out the door! I went on a big shopping thing the other day I felt great so wanted to shop! Im definitley going to get back to it though as it was working! I know this is short, but I will let you all know more later I'm off to see my trainer!

update

So Ive started running and its awsome! Yesterday I did my first mile which I was so happy about.  I havent really lost much more weight I'm down about 12 pounds so far, so I guess thats ok right?  I wish it was a  bit more but I keep getting told Im gaining muscle with my training so not to stress out about it.  Its amazing how easy it is to gain weight but to loose it its sooo hard, working out and trying to eat right its a job on its own.  I wouldnt mind a big juicy cheesburger though I'm craving one, but I wont do it.  Today I'm heading to go do some more running and to do some yoga.  My trainer said I should up the yoga since Im starting to up my workouts and feeling my body tensing.
As for the savings - well its going and its not - Ive been pretty good at saving money but also spending - with the weight loss I need new pants as my pants are falling off of me. (Not that I'm complaining!)

update

So Ive decided to update my last 2 post were kinda depressing! Just going through a rough patch which I think everyone can relate too! We all get them!  So Im currently still working hard although I havent seeminly lost any more weight I am toning a lot though! My trainer and I are working hard I'm going to do a 5k at the end of May! Im super excited about this and cant wait! 
Im currently also waiting to hear if I got a permanent position at work or not or Im back to full time! We will see my fingers are crossed.  Lets hope so! I dont think I did well on the interview I could of done better but I was soooo nervous! I hate interviews!
Other than that - thats pretty much it looking forward to girls night tonight and heading to Toronto.
Ive had a few people come up to me who are keeping in touch with my blog, they tell me how much I've inspired them and they love reading my updates! I want to say thank you, I love it when people tell me that I'm inspiring them in one way or another this is what this whole new journey is all about! ♥

being scared

So Ive come to realized that one of my worst fears has come to be reality.  Ive been single so long I dont even know how to be in a relationship anymore.  Im begining to think I'm never going to find someone Im almost 30 and still single. Ive dated but nothing ever seems to go beyond that.  I like someone but I cant seem to open up and now Im still alone.  This hurts, everyone I know has moved on with their lives and Im still stuck, I feel like I will never be with someone and I will be alone for the rest of my life.

mix of emotions

This week has been a alright week for me, Im just feeling really wierd lately.  A big mix of emotions and I dont really know how to take it.  I feel on edge and really want to blow up.  Im feeling let down by a friend of mine and feeling like she's pushing me away.  John has been great on letting me vent, but we are still brand new and Im feeling guilty on venting about everything to him.  Sometimes I'm feeling alone and cant really talk to anyone about what Im feeling, seems like everyone is way too busy to even listen.  This isnt a great feeling either, its a rather lonely dark feeling.
I saw my trainer twice this week, she kicked my butt Wednesday night and today. I was so tired on Wednesday that I just crashed early cause of the workout she made me do.  She's going to help me train for a 5k for the end of May! I wanted to do one in the fall, and she was like why wait?  You can do one at the end of May and I will run with you! I'm so excited for this! So we are starting the training for it.  Im feeling more motivated now, and cant wait! I want to proove it to myself that I can do this. 

update Feb

So its been a week since I been to the gym due to being sick with a cold.  I made myself go today though I was in a big need for it, even though I still had have a cough. This cough is nasty.  I hate it!  Im down about 9 pounds, I was down 10 but gained a pound I think it was from last night! I was supposed to cleanse but went out for dinner with Jeannie instead.  I just hope I can keep this going!  I saw my trainer tonight and made appointments this week to get my ass back on track!

Another update

So this week I'm so sick, Got a nasty cold and a brutal cough to go with it, I'm trying to eat healthy, but feeling really guilty that I cant go to the gym. Im hoping by the end of the week I will feel better and get my butt to the gym, hopefully this doesnt cause any weight gain.